i find i am fine when i'm busy doing things. when i'm in the apartment alone with nothing to do, that's when i get homesick. i skyped with my mom a few minutes ago and i couldn't help but cry. i get in these moods where i'm terribly sad and long for the summer. i liked the summer. i worked a lot, got to spend loads of time with josh and grew even closer to my mom.

i want it to be christmas break already and it's only the first day of class.
i want to have a good attitude about college but it's just so hard.

daniel gave me a blessing last night and while deep down in my heart i know this is the place i'm supposed to be, i just wish it could be closer to my home. i envy the people i meet who are from orem, provo, salt lake and all the other close places.


i need a hug. from my mom. or josh. it really stinks that i won't get either of those hugs for 3 1/2 months.